working a midnight shift

Tonight I am working a midnight shift and I only have a few more to do before Brian comes home on leave. Only 24 more days until I get to see him for a whole 18 days!! I don't mind the day shifts and I really love the afternoon shifts but the dogs don't like me sleeping during the day and I was never a person to sleep during the day unless I was sick.

So Brian and I will not be together for christmas - I guess that is ok - I would rather someone who has kids be home for the holidays but I will still miss him. I miss him anyway no matter if it is a holiday or just a regular weekday.

Last week was my first week teaching my knitting group and we really had a good time I am looking forward to us getting together this week and am happy that they are flexible and are able to work around my work schedule.

Brian called today and I was so happy to hear from him. I find myself looking at the picture of him just to pretend he is at the house with me. It is very hard to be apart and I have been working my ass off doing stuff to the house just so being apart is easier. It is bad enough that he is gone for six months but the year and a half training before he left meant that by the time he comes home we will have been apart for more than I even want to think about.

Sometimes the only way I can handle this is to think about my Grandmother and her on the farm looking after it and two little girls with no drivers liscense and living 28miles from the city during WWII when my grandfather was overseas. At least I get phone calls and emails, she never would have even had a phone call, and I am sure that letters weren't to plentiful either. I don't think I could have handled being in that situation because this one is hard enough.

Brian very rarely sounds anything other than tired when he calls. Sometimes I can tell that he is frustrated but there is nothing I can do to help him and I wish I could. I never knew you could miss someone and love someone this much.

Anyway back to knitting - two of the girls have had experience knitting before and we are going to work on a scarf this week. The other girl has never knit before but has caught on very quick. Since our digital camera is broken I am going to go get another one so I can take pictures of what we are making so that anyone who reads this can see our progress and so that I can post some of the other things I have been working on.