Midnight

So here I am working another midnight. It is the 22 and Brian is due home again on the 29th. I am getting excited and of course nervous. I always get nervous taht he will get home and be different. It doesn't really matter how long he is gone but it is definatly more nerve racking the longer he is gone.

I had a really bad day yesterday. The mother of a few of my friends passed away after a very long battle with cancer and then hearing about the 4 soldiers who died just sent me over the bend.

We also got our new shift schedule at work and I think whoever makes it up is on crack!!Who in their right mind thinks a person can work (lets pick a date out of the air) from midnight to 8 am on the 2nd and then come back in to work from 8am to 4 pm on the 3rd. They either had to be dropped as a baby or did major chemical drugs as a teenager! And of course when I said I wouldn't do shifts like that I am made out to be the bitch. I found out that they did it to someone else as well and we'll see what happens now because he is alot bigger and stronger and louder that I am (but of course they won't say anything to him)

I started knitting a new pair of socks with merino/cashmere yarn and I absolutly love them already. Pictures to follow on here and on Ravelry. I also only have 3 more inches to go on the sweater I plan on wearing when I pick Brian up. I have the thumbs to finish on the trigger finger mittens Darryl asked me to make for him.

I have been throwing things out and trying to organize before Brian gets here but I am feeling very pressured because I am so running out of time.

I like working midnights because I am here by myself but I also find working midnights very hard because I don't sleep well during the day and today was especially hard. I had a short nap this afternoon but I went to bed at 8pm last night and set the alarm for 10 pm. Well I didn't even get to sleep because at 8:20 the neighbor across the road decided that they needed to set fireworks off. I guess they had to celebrate spring or something. Of course they couldn't set them all off at once they had to set 3 off then waited a few mins and then a couple more, this went on for a while and then at 8:45 some asshole had to squeel his tires and had to do burnouts in front of the house.

The other side of midnights is that you are here by yourself and if something happens then you have no one to help you andwhat if you have a medical emergency. I am always nervous when I am coming to work for a morning shift when there are 2 different people working. They have some health problems and are older - I always hope that the other day shift person gets here before me just incase something has happened.

There are people working in the building 24 hours a day but you never see them when you are working a night shift.

It is 1:20 am and I just got off the phone with Brian. He went through battle school with him. He says he is ok but I always wonder if he really is. So on this tour he (to my knowledge) has lost 8 guys that he knew.

It sounds crazy but our conversation was 8mins and 8secs. It is amazing how much you can say in that short of a conversation.

I asked him if I can start getting excited and he says that he is going to so it is ok if I do too! Then I asked if I could start counting the days and he said he is going to start tomorrow. He had to go and do some work but he said he will call me when I am working on my nightshift tomorrow night. I find it wierd that I have just hung up with him and I so can't wait until I talk to him again tomorrow night.