So I picked Brian up at the Airport on April 2 and the minuite I saw his face the stress of him being gone washed away. I knew I was stressed but you never really know until the stress leaves as to how bad it really was.
I knew it was bad and I now realize how bitchy I was while he was gone. To everyone I apologize for any rude comments or bad behavior. My stress is not an excuse but only a reason for my actions during the past several months.
So I picked him up at 9 am (it was a sunday) and at 1AM monday Daisy woke me up. I smelled something wierd and heard a strange noise. I slipped on the first pair of shoes I could find and made my way to the basement. I took 2 steps into the laundry room and my feet were in water! I went to the sump hole to find the sump pump running but not pumpimg water. I umplugged it and lifted it out of the hole and it completely fell apart. I tried to get it back together but had no luck.
I was so happy that I didn't have to deal with this myself but I was still wishing that we could have at least had the first 24 hours of him being home to be event free but then again that just isn't our luck is it?
So we talked about what we were going to do and we decided that at 1 AM there really isn't that much you can do so we picked up what could be ruined and went back to bed.
At 7 AM we made our way into town and knocked on the doors at Home Hardware and asked them to sell us what we needed.
By the time we got back to the house there was ankle deep water over the entire floor. We proceded to hook up the new pump and a couple hours later the water was mostly gone and we started throwing out what we decided to no longer keep.
By 2 pm we had pretty much everything under control.
A few days later the floor drain in the laundry room was backing up slightly so I called the plumber that I had in earlier that week to come over. He found that there was no problem with the drain but he did find that there is water that stays in the main drain line and that shouldn't happen. Well then we talked and wondered if the flooding of the basement mixed with the melting snow might have an effect on the leachfield for the septic.
So here is the other side of the story. We were told that the septic was pumped out right before the house was closed up after the former owner died so we thought that it was in one place but the drawing showed it in another place. The place where the drawing has it is in the same place as a tree so logic rules out that location. we thought it was another place because it looks like someone dug there within the last year but htat doesn't make sense if you compair how far the auger went when the plumber was over.
I saw one of the neighbors and asked him if he might know but no luck. We saw another neighbor and asked him and he said no but told us the name of the former owners son. So I took a gamble and called him. He told us where he thought it was so we borrowed a metal detector from a friend and had a little adventure, but of course no luck.
A couple of days later we got a call from the man's sister and she was nice enough to come over but she wasn't much help. She only confirmed that we were lied to and that the septic wasn't pumped out when they said it was. Also there were things she told us that she should have put on the discosure before the sale.
Now that I know everything she told us I am upset. I wouldn't do this to someone I would hope. But it is fixable.
Now that we know where the septic is it turns out that it is where all the water from the sump pump runs. Everything is working better now but I still want to dig up the septic to get it pumped.
Oh well,
WELCOME HOME Brian
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Midnight
So here I am working another midnight. It is the 22 and Brian is due home again on the 29th. I am getting excited and of course nervous. I always get nervous taht he will get home and be different. It doesn't really matter how long he is gone but it is definatly more nerve racking the longer he is gone.
I had a really bad day yesterday. The mother of a few of my friends passed away after a very long battle with cancer and then hearing about the 4 soldiers who died just sent me over the bend.
We also got our new shift schedule at work and I think whoever makes it up is on crack!!Who in their right mind thinks a person can work (lets pick a date out of the air) from midnight to 8 am on the 2nd and then come back in to work from 8am to 4 pm on the 3rd. They either had to be dropped as a baby or did major chemical drugs as a teenager! And of course when I said I wouldn't do shifts like that I am made out to be the bitch. I found out that they did it to someone else as well and we'll see what happens now because he is alot bigger and stronger and louder that I am (but of course they won't say anything to him)
I started knitting a new pair of socks with merino/cashmere yarn and I absolutly love them already. Pictures to follow on here and on Ravelry. I also only have 3 more inches to go on the sweater I plan on wearing when I pick Brian up. I have the thumbs to finish on the trigger finger mittens Darryl asked me to make for him.
I have been throwing things out and trying to organize before Brian gets here but I am feeling very pressured because I am so running out of time.
I like working midnights because I am here by myself but I also find working midnights very hard because I don't sleep well during the day and today was especially hard. I had a short nap this afternoon but I went to bed at 8pm last night and set the alarm for 10 pm. Well I didn't even get to sleep because at 8:20 the neighbor across the road decided that they needed to set fireworks off. I guess they had to celebrate spring or something. Of course they couldn't set them all off at once they had to set 3 off then waited a few mins and then a couple more, this went on for a while and then at 8:45 some asshole had to squeel his tires and had to do burnouts in front of the house.
The other side of midnights is that you are here by yourself and if something happens then you have no one to help you andwhat if you have a medical emergency. I am always nervous when I am coming to work for a morning shift when there are 2 different people working. They have some health problems and are older - I always hope that the other day shift person gets here before me just incase something has happened.
There are people working in the building 24 hours a day but you never see them when you are working a night shift.
It is 1:20 am and I just got off the phone with Brian. He went through battle school with him. He says he is ok but I always wonder if he really is. So on this tour he (to my knowledge) has lost 8 guys that he knew.
It sounds crazy but our conversation was 8mins and 8secs. It is amazing how much you can say in that short of a conversation.
I asked him if I can start getting excited and he says that he is going to so it is ok if I do too! Then I asked if I could start counting the days and he said he is going to start tomorrow. He had to go and do some work but he said he will call me when I am working on my nightshift tomorrow night. I find it wierd that I have just hung up with him and I so can't wait until I talk to him again tomorrow night.
I had a really bad day yesterday. The mother of a few of my friends passed away after a very long battle with cancer and then hearing about the 4 soldiers who died just sent me over the bend.
We also got our new shift schedule at work and I think whoever makes it up is on crack!!Who in their right mind thinks a person can work (lets pick a date out of the air) from midnight to 8 am on the 2nd and then come back in to work from 8am to 4 pm on the 3rd. They either had to be dropped as a baby or did major chemical drugs as a teenager! And of course when I said I wouldn't do shifts like that I am made out to be the bitch. I found out that they did it to someone else as well and we'll see what happens now because he is alot bigger and stronger and louder that I am (but of course they won't say anything to him)
I started knitting a new pair of socks with merino/cashmere yarn and I absolutly love them already. Pictures to follow on here and on Ravelry. I also only have 3 more inches to go on the sweater I plan on wearing when I pick Brian up. I have the thumbs to finish on the trigger finger mittens Darryl asked me to make for him.
I have been throwing things out and trying to organize before Brian gets here but I am feeling very pressured because I am so running out of time.
I like working midnights because I am here by myself but I also find working midnights very hard because I don't sleep well during the day and today was especially hard. I had a short nap this afternoon but I went to bed at 8pm last night and set the alarm for 10 pm. Well I didn't even get to sleep because at 8:20 the neighbor across the road decided that they needed to set fireworks off. I guess they had to celebrate spring or something. Of course they couldn't set them all off at once they had to set 3 off then waited a few mins and then a couple more, this went on for a while and then at 8:45 some asshole had to squeel his tires and had to do burnouts in front of the house.
The other side of midnights is that you are here by yourself and if something happens then you have no one to help you andwhat if you have a medical emergency. I am always nervous when I am coming to work for a morning shift when there are 2 different people working. They have some health problems and are older - I always hope that the other day shift person gets here before me just incase something has happened.
There are people working in the building 24 hours a day but you never see them when you are working a night shift.
It is 1:20 am and I just got off the phone with Brian. He went through battle school with him. He says he is ok but I always wonder if he really is. So on this tour he (to my knowledge) has lost 8 guys that he knew.
It sounds crazy but our conversation was 8mins and 8secs. It is amazing how much you can say in that short of a conversation.
I asked him if I can start getting excited and he says that he is going to so it is ok if I do too! Then I asked if I could start counting the days and he said he is going to start tomorrow. He had to go and do some work but he said he will call me when I am working on my nightshift tomorrow night. I find it wierd that I have just hung up with him and I so can't wait until I talk to him again tomorrow night.
Friday, March 13, 2009
100 things about me (give or take)
I have seen people do this and since I am working another midnight I figured why not!!
1. I was born in Bathurst New Brunswick on July 21
2. I have been working shift work for 2 years now and absolutly hate it. If I sleep during the day I get a horrible headache and then somewhere between 4 and 6 am I always feel like I am going to throw up.
3. We have been trying for 3 years now to have a baby.
4. We have 2 dogs - Daisy and Zac
5. I hate watching sports on tv but will attempt to play any of them. I say attempt because I am not good at sports but will play for the fun of it.
6. I have only been without a dog for 6 months of my life that I can remember and don't wish to have a life without that companionship.
7. I hate that my dad drinks so much and wish he knew what a great guy he is when he is sober.
8. My mother constantly repeats herself and it drives me crazy. She also tells me things about people that I don't know or care about then she tries to tell me that I know them but she never seems to tell me things about people I do know or care about.
9. My largest pet peeve is people trying or thinking that they should be involved in decisions you make with your loved one that really has nothing to do with them.
10. I am a loner which is both good and bad especially since my hubby is military. The bad part is having few friends to rely on when Brian is away. The good part is thatI can't stand the actions and mentality of other military wifes. Though I do miss not having a best friend.
11. I think I am pretty easy going (until you piss me off or break my trust, that is)
12. I hate boats, airplanes, water and flying. I know that travelling via vehicle isn't as safe but I much prefer being on the ground. Train travel is my favorite.
13. I never have touched hard drugs.
14. I am severly hard on myself.
15. I do not trust easily
16. I generally don't care what people think about me.
17. I would love to get contact lenses implanted in my eyes so I don't have to wear glasses anymore (I can no longer wear contacts)
18. I don't have a lucky number but I love the number 13 (mainily because of how people react to friday the 13th)
19. If I could work from home I would but even more than that If I could make a living staying home and knitting I think I would be in heaven.
20. I can't figure out why people who know me well still give me chatchkys because I just put them in a yardsale or the garbage. The same is true of pink - I absolutly hate pink!
21. I battle depression and it frustrates me that people think you should just be able to snap out of it. We have traced it back to beginning very early in life but we have never discovered exaclty when it started.
22. I have a very hard time respecting people who think they are superior and also people who are not opened to suggestions.
23. If I had to choose a season to live in for the rest of my life it would be fall. with a temperature between 15 and 20 degrees and cooler at night because I love to wear sweaters.
24. my hair is my real color but I have dyed it a couple of times.
25. The first cassette tape I ever bought was Duran Duran.
26. I have had a threewheeler accident, a skidoo accident and extremly minor car accident, I also hurt my back when I was 26. The first caused me to have knee surgery, the second caused a seperated shoulder. the car accident caused nothing and my back injury caused me to be home for 5 weeks and perminant damage but I am ok.
27. the sound of Daisy crying drives me batty
28. I miss Brian when he isn't with me and although I respect his job and wish I could do it too it scares the hell out of me that he is in danger.
29. I really wish I was a minimalist but I would go crazy without my yarn stash.
30. the smell of body odor drives me crazy and I don't understand why it is so hard for people can't or don't use deoderant
31. my dreams are usually the kind I would rather not remember. Occassionally they are funny, like the first time Brian went overseas, I had this dream that he met an Afghani woman and decided that he wanted to stay with her even though he didn't even know what she looked like because she wore a burkah, so I had to pack up his dog(daisy) and ship her over to him. I was mad at him for days after that dream.
32. I will drink coffee occasionally but don't really like it but I love coffee ice cream and coffee frozen yogurt.
33. Marriage was never important to me but I so want to marry Brian. I guess what they say is true. When you meet the right one you will know. I am not sure who they is but it's true. Having said that I am not sure I would feel that way if we dadn't want to have kids. I absolutly do not want to have a differnt last name then my kid.
34. When I was little I never imagined myself as a mom but I always wanted to be a grandmother.
35. I have felt guilty for a very long time that I was very angry with my grandmother when she died. I was angry that she left me here without her. Then years later my other grandmother died and I still fell totally abandoned
36. People sometimes refer to me as bitchy but when they get to know me it they realize it is cautiousness and shyness.
37. I am an emotional person who is sensative. I really hate this about myself
38. 99% of the time I change my clothes as soon as I get home and put on flannel pj pants and a t-shirt. If I don't Brian has been known to ask what the special occasion is.
39. I watch far to much TV but actually I mainly only listen to it and sometimes not even that. I just like haveing a conversation in the background.
40. I knit and crochet mainly but have attempted many more things than these 2
41. we drive a silver pontiac vibe - which I absolutly love. of course the guys I know alway ask how I like my viberator
42. I have no sense of direction and could get lost int he smallest of places
43. I would love to go back to school but it is way way way to expensive.
44. I have a brother but really want nothing to do with him and hate that my parents keep pushing me to ahve a relationship with him because if I wanted one I would try
45. I have very wierd views of religion. I don't believe in organized religion I think it is just a money grab. I also don't believe that what is written in the babile happened. I think it was more stories that were told as teachings than actual events.
46. I love being Canadian. I love that I was born here but I hate that some Canadians think they deserve more than others and that not all Canadians are treated as equals.
47. I love military shows like NCIS, JAG, Mash, The Unit.
48. I usually let things go that make me angry but when I get to the boiling point watch out.
49. I so would love to travel to other countries but as stated earlier I hate boats and airplanes
50. I get terrible headaches that last for days at a time and happen often and hate being around fluorescent lighting when I have one because it feels like my eyes are being hauled out of my head.
51. I am very curious. I love to ask questions but I rarely ever do for fear of hurting people's feelings. But I want to know wierd things. Like what it is like to have an artificial limb and how they work or how little people or people in wheel chairs manage to do things. I do tend to stare at people who are different but is is just because I what to know stuff.
52. I love the fact that I was named after someone and the bond made me have between my grandparents and me but I hate that noone else my age has my name. I also hate my middle name and only ever use my inital excet when I absolutly have to use the whole thing. My parents swear they never used drugs but I think they must have when they thought up my name.
53. I am lactose intollerant but I love milk and drink it anyway even though the after effects are painful.
54. we never had cable when I grew up and I think I was around 5 or 6 when we got our first color TV.
55. my earliest memory is sitting on my grandfather's bed. He died when I was 2
56. I very very rarely change my earrings.
57. I wear a puzzle ring that Brian got me as well as my grandmothers family ring and my highschool ring. My only other jewlery is my medic alert necklace.
58. I enjoy working more with men then women for the simple reason that I have had to many bad experiences with back stabbing and catyness by girls. I am usually the one that gets blamed andin trouble for stuff that others do.
59. I wish I was more active but everything I like to do is so stationary
60. I am not sure how old I was but my brother pushed me off a stool and my head hit the baseboard heater. I had to get 6 stitches in the back of my head. The Dr didn't cut one of te threads so on my first day back at school my cousin say the black thread in my blonde hair and she pulled it.
61. Brian is a horrible snorer. One time he was very tired and he was laying on his back snoring and he woke me up (it was that bad) so I shoved him and told him to roll over. he did roll over but he rolled the wrong way and rolled onto me and had his face right beside my ear and started to snore immediatly.
62. I was always very thin until 5 years ago. and I hate the wieght I am right now.
63. I hate snakes but spiders are my thing that drives me insane
64. I love to buy knitting magazines
65. I hate people who abuse or neglect animals
66. I love all dogs but don't trust German Shepards
67. I am very much a tomboy and can't believe people waste money on macicures and so on.
68. I am very very ticklish and my feet are definalty the worst spot.
69. I would love to remember to take pictures. I either don't remember to take the camera with me or if I take it with me I never remember to actually take it out and turn it on. Having said that It frustrates me that people give you these large pictures of their kids, anything bigger than a 4x6 is crazy.
70. I hate Starbucks and Tim Hortons. Starbucks is way way way overpriced and Tim Hortons has very terrible service
71. When I first met Brian I said some really crazy things to him so he wouldn't be interested but I guess it backfired because he is still here
72. I can't sing and don't attempt to unless I am alone in the car
73. I try very very hard not to be late. I am usually 15 mins early for everything
74. Brian is a big procrastinator and it drives me insane.
75. I hate doing housework but if I am going to do it I like to do it early in the day and get it overwith so the rest of the day is free to do other things and Brian is the exact opposite.
76. I am an extremely light sleeper and I am very jealous that Brian can sleep through anything
77. When Brian is away or getting ready to go away I near go crazy with worry and fear. Then when he is gone I feel more alone than I have ever felt.
78. It is really crazy that right before Brian comes home (like now) I alway get nervous that he will decide he doesn't want to be with me any more or that he will be mad at something I have done while he was away.
79. even though Brian is french and I need to improve my french we never speak french together
80. I am crazy parinoid about our well running dry and hate it when someone stays at
our house and just takes over and waists water.
81. I would love to be back in High School but would want Brian to be with me.
82. I would love to win the lottery but not to much. Just enough to pay everything off and renovate the house and not have to work.
83.I would love to live on an island (just me and the Brian and the dogs) and we could live off the island and not have to have to rely on anyone or have to have contact with anyone else unless we wanted to.
84. I hate cooking for 1
85. It drives me crazy that when Brian is away and he asks how Daisy is and if she has been behaving the very next day after he asks she then does something bad.
86. After living alone for so long it is funny how quickly you start to rely on the person you become involved with
87. It drives me nuts that if you tell someone something and you have the experience to back up the knowledge why is it that they don't believe you but they believe someone who is basically just guessing.
Well I have managed to come up with 87 which is more than I thought I would. Maybe I will think of 13 more sometime so I can finish the list.
1. I was born in Bathurst New Brunswick on July 21
2. I have been working shift work for 2 years now and absolutly hate it. If I sleep during the day I get a horrible headache and then somewhere between 4 and 6 am I always feel like I am going to throw up.
3. We have been trying for 3 years now to have a baby.
4. We have 2 dogs - Daisy and Zac
5. I hate watching sports on tv but will attempt to play any of them. I say attempt because I am not good at sports but will play for the fun of it.
6. I have only been without a dog for 6 months of my life that I can remember and don't wish to have a life without that companionship.
7. I hate that my dad drinks so much and wish he knew what a great guy he is when he is sober.
8. My mother constantly repeats herself and it drives me crazy. She also tells me things about people that I don't know or care about then she tries to tell me that I know them but she never seems to tell me things about people I do know or care about.
9. My largest pet peeve is people trying or thinking that they should be involved in decisions you make with your loved one that really has nothing to do with them.
10. I am a loner which is both good and bad especially since my hubby is military. The bad part is having few friends to rely on when Brian is away. The good part is thatI can't stand the actions and mentality of other military wifes. Though I do miss not having a best friend.
11. I think I am pretty easy going (until you piss me off or break my trust, that is)
12. I hate boats, airplanes, water and flying. I know that travelling via vehicle isn't as safe but I much prefer being on the ground. Train travel is my favorite.
13. I never have touched hard drugs.
14. I am severly hard on myself.
15. I do not trust easily
16. I generally don't care what people think about me.
17. I would love to get contact lenses implanted in my eyes so I don't have to wear glasses anymore (I can no longer wear contacts)
18. I don't have a lucky number but I love the number 13 (mainily because of how people react to friday the 13th)
19. If I could work from home I would but even more than that If I could make a living staying home and knitting I think I would be in heaven.
20. I can't figure out why people who know me well still give me chatchkys because I just put them in a yardsale or the garbage. The same is true of pink - I absolutly hate pink!
21. I battle depression and it frustrates me that people think you should just be able to snap out of it. We have traced it back to beginning very early in life but we have never discovered exaclty when it started.
22. I have a very hard time respecting people who think they are superior and also people who are not opened to suggestions.
23. If I had to choose a season to live in for the rest of my life it would be fall. with a temperature between 15 and 20 degrees and cooler at night because I love to wear sweaters.
24. my hair is my real color but I have dyed it a couple of times.
25. The first cassette tape I ever bought was Duran Duran.
26. I have had a threewheeler accident, a skidoo accident and extremly minor car accident, I also hurt my back when I was 26. The first caused me to have knee surgery, the second caused a seperated shoulder. the car accident caused nothing and my back injury caused me to be home for 5 weeks and perminant damage but I am ok.
27. the sound of Daisy crying drives me batty
28. I miss Brian when he isn't with me and although I respect his job and wish I could do it too it scares the hell out of me that he is in danger.
29. I really wish I was a minimalist but I would go crazy without my yarn stash.
30. the smell of body odor drives me crazy and I don't understand why it is so hard for people can't or don't use deoderant
31. my dreams are usually the kind I would rather not remember. Occassionally they are funny, like the first time Brian went overseas, I had this dream that he met an Afghani woman and decided that he wanted to stay with her even though he didn't even know what she looked like because she wore a burkah, so I had to pack up his dog(daisy) and ship her over to him. I was mad at him for days after that dream.
32. I will drink coffee occasionally but don't really like it but I love coffee ice cream and coffee frozen yogurt.
33. Marriage was never important to me but I so want to marry Brian. I guess what they say is true. When you meet the right one you will know. I am not sure who they is but it's true. Having said that I am not sure I would feel that way if we dadn't want to have kids. I absolutly do not want to have a differnt last name then my kid.
34. When I was little I never imagined myself as a mom but I always wanted to be a grandmother.
35. I have felt guilty for a very long time that I was very angry with my grandmother when she died. I was angry that she left me here without her. Then years later my other grandmother died and I still fell totally abandoned
36. People sometimes refer to me as bitchy but when they get to know me it they realize it is cautiousness and shyness.
37. I am an emotional person who is sensative. I really hate this about myself
38. 99% of the time I change my clothes as soon as I get home and put on flannel pj pants and a t-shirt. If I don't Brian has been known to ask what the special occasion is.
39. I watch far to much TV but actually I mainly only listen to it and sometimes not even that. I just like haveing a conversation in the background.
40. I knit and crochet mainly but have attempted many more things than these 2
41. we drive a silver pontiac vibe - which I absolutly love. of course the guys I know alway ask how I like my viberator
42. I have no sense of direction and could get lost int he smallest of places
43. I would love to go back to school but it is way way way to expensive.
44. I have a brother but really want nothing to do with him and hate that my parents keep pushing me to ahve a relationship with him because if I wanted one I would try
45. I have very wierd views of religion. I don't believe in organized religion I think it is just a money grab. I also don't believe that what is written in the babile happened. I think it was more stories that were told as teachings than actual events.
46. I love being Canadian. I love that I was born here but I hate that some Canadians think they deserve more than others and that not all Canadians are treated as equals.
47. I love military shows like NCIS, JAG, Mash, The Unit.
48. I usually let things go that make me angry but when I get to the boiling point watch out.
49. I so would love to travel to other countries but as stated earlier I hate boats and airplanes
50. I get terrible headaches that last for days at a time and happen often and hate being around fluorescent lighting when I have one because it feels like my eyes are being hauled out of my head.
51. I am very curious. I love to ask questions but I rarely ever do for fear of hurting people's feelings. But I want to know wierd things. Like what it is like to have an artificial limb and how they work or how little people or people in wheel chairs manage to do things. I do tend to stare at people who are different but is is just because I what to know stuff.
52. I love the fact that I was named after someone and the bond made me have between my grandparents and me but I hate that noone else my age has my name. I also hate my middle name and only ever use my inital excet when I absolutly have to use the whole thing. My parents swear they never used drugs but I think they must have when they thought up my name.
53. I am lactose intollerant but I love milk and drink it anyway even though the after effects are painful.
54. we never had cable when I grew up and I think I was around 5 or 6 when we got our first color TV.
55. my earliest memory is sitting on my grandfather's bed. He died when I was 2
56. I very very rarely change my earrings.
57. I wear a puzzle ring that Brian got me as well as my grandmothers family ring and my highschool ring. My only other jewlery is my medic alert necklace.
58. I enjoy working more with men then women for the simple reason that I have had to many bad experiences with back stabbing and catyness by girls. I am usually the one that gets blamed andin trouble for stuff that others do.
59. I wish I was more active but everything I like to do is so stationary
60. I am not sure how old I was but my brother pushed me off a stool and my head hit the baseboard heater. I had to get 6 stitches in the back of my head. The Dr didn't cut one of te threads so on my first day back at school my cousin say the black thread in my blonde hair and she pulled it.
61. Brian is a horrible snorer. One time he was very tired and he was laying on his back snoring and he woke me up (it was that bad) so I shoved him and told him to roll over. he did roll over but he rolled the wrong way and rolled onto me and had his face right beside my ear and started to snore immediatly.
62. I was always very thin until 5 years ago. and I hate the wieght I am right now.
63. I hate snakes but spiders are my thing that drives me insane
64. I love to buy knitting magazines
65. I hate people who abuse or neglect animals
66. I love all dogs but don't trust German Shepards
67. I am very much a tomboy and can't believe people waste money on macicures and so on.
68. I am very very ticklish and my feet are definalty the worst spot.
69. I would love to remember to take pictures. I either don't remember to take the camera with me or if I take it with me I never remember to actually take it out and turn it on. Having said that It frustrates me that people give you these large pictures of their kids, anything bigger than a 4x6 is crazy.
70. I hate Starbucks and Tim Hortons. Starbucks is way way way overpriced and Tim Hortons has very terrible service
71. When I first met Brian I said some really crazy things to him so he wouldn't be interested but I guess it backfired because he is still here
72. I can't sing and don't attempt to unless I am alone in the car
73. I try very very hard not to be late. I am usually 15 mins early for everything
74. Brian is a big procrastinator and it drives me insane.
75. I hate doing housework but if I am going to do it I like to do it early in the day and get it overwith so the rest of the day is free to do other things and Brian is the exact opposite.
76. I am an extremely light sleeper and I am very jealous that Brian can sleep through anything
77. When Brian is away or getting ready to go away I near go crazy with worry and fear. Then when he is gone I feel more alone than I have ever felt.
78. It is really crazy that right before Brian comes home (like now) I alway get nervous that he will decide he doesn't want to be with me any more or that he will be mad at something I have done while he was away.
79. even though Brian is french and I need to improve my french we never speak french together
80. I am crazy parinoid about our well running dry and hate it when someone stays at
our house and just takes over and waists water.
81. I would love to be back in High School but would want Brian to be with me.
82. I would love to win the lottery but not to much. Just enough to pay everything off and renovate the house and not have to work.
83.I would love to live on an island (just me and the Brian and the dogs) and we could live off the island and not have to have to rely on anyone or have to have contact with anyone else unless we wanted to.
84. I hate cooking for 1
85. It drives me crazy that when Brian is away and he asks how Daisy is and if she has been behaving the very next day after he asks she then does something bad.
86. After living alone for so long it is funny how quickly you start to rely on the person you become involved with
87. It drives me nuts that if you tell someone something and you have the experience to back up the knowledge why is it that they don't believe you but they believe someone who is basically just guessing.
Well I have managed to come up with 87 which is more than I thought I would. Maybe I will think of 13 more sometime so I can finish the list.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Monday, March 02, 2009
Another midnight shift
I am working another midnight shift and am struggling to stay awake so I decided to make an entry in my ever so neglected blog.
My hubby has been away since Sept with a brief return in Dec. (but his brief return was way to short). I decided that before he left I would keep myself busy so maybe the time would pass faster and that maybe I could deal with our latest miscarriage a little easier. Well, that worked for a while but it caught up with me and I am now paying for it. We are finally on the down hill slope to his return and although I am not ready to start counting the days until his return - I can't wait to see him again.
His being away would be so much easier if I has some support. It is very funny how every member of your family says they are there for you but you never hear from them while you are home alone.
Christmas was hell as pretty much any day without my hubby is pretty hellish.
The dogs have been my only support and while I wouldn't trade them It would be nice if things were different.
I have been doing lots of knitting and have happily joined "Ravelry" and have posted my projects there. I am discovering the advantages of Ravelry and it has helped me inventory mu hooks, needles, yarn, magazines and books. It has also helped me reduce my needle and hook stash tremendiously. This also helps me justify buying more Addi needles. I hope to eventually switch all my needles to Addi.
I have also redone my laundry/knitting room and I absolutly love it. I forgot to take before pictures as it would have been nice to show the before and after of the room. When I am done the room I wil take pictures.
I have been having a very very hard time getting a plumber to come over. I could do most of the work by myself but the rest I would need to have some help with.
The first plumber is a young guy who is undergoing cancer treatments and after him saying that he wanted to do the work I couldn't get him to call me back.
The second guy I contacted said he would do the work (I told him I wanted it done before the 15th of FEB.) He said it wouldn't be a problem but here it is March 2 and the work still isn't done. I don't really want to get a different plumber because I do completely trust these guys and I would rather wait for one of then than to have someone I don't know come over.
I have signed up with the Clutter Crew on the Oprah website to get rid of some of the crap in our house. I have been working steadily at it and I am surprised at the amount of stuff to get rid of.
I had more tests done just after my hubby left again to see if there was a medical reason why I had 2 miscarriages but everything looks like it is working properly so we will fill out adoption papers when Brian gets here and procede with trying again. We will see whaty happens but I kind of have a feeling that nothing is going to happen. Maybe that feeling is mostly frustration but I still have the feeling.
I don't really have time to blog at home so I guess here at work on a midnight shift is the best place to get this done.
See you next midnight shift!
My hubby has been away since Sept with a brief return in Dec. (but his brief return was way to short). I decided that before he left I would keep myself busy so maybe the time would pass faster and that maybe I could deal with our latest miscarriage a little easier. Well, that worked for a while but it caught up with me and I am now paying for it. We are finally on the down hill slope to his return and although I am not ready to start counting the days until his return - I can't wait to see him again.
His being away would be so much easier if I has some support. It is very funny how every member of your family says they are there for you but you never hear from them while you are home alone.
Christmas was hell as pretty much any day without my hubby is pretty hellish.
The dogs have been my only support and while I wouldn't trade them It would be nice if things were different.
I have been doing lots of knitting and have happily joined "Ravelry" and have posted my projects there. I am discovering the advantages of Ravelry and it has helped me inventory mu hooks, needles, yarn, magazines and books. It has also helped me reduce my needle and hook stash tremendiously. This also helps me justify buying more Addi needles. I hope to eventually switch all my needles to Addi.
I have also redone my laundry/knitting room and I absolutly love it. I forgot to take before pictures as it would have been nice to show the before and after of the room. When I am done the room I wil take pictures.
I have been having a very very hard time getting a plumber to come over. I could do most of the work by myself but the rest I would need to have some help with.
The first plumber is a young guy who is undergoing cancer treatments and after him saying that he wanted to do the work I couldn't get him to call me back.
The second guy I contacted said he would do the work (I told him I wanted it done before the 15th of FEB.) He said it wouldn't be a problem but here it is March 2 and the work still isn't done. I don't really want to get a different plumber because I do completely trust these guys and I would rather wait for one of then than to have someone I don't know come over.
I have signed up with the Clutter Crew on the Oprah website to get rid of some of the crap in our house. I have been working steadily at it and I am surprised at the amount of stuff to get rid of.
I had more tests done just after my hubby left again to see if there was a medical reason why I had 2 miscarriages but everything looks like it is working properly so we will fill out adoption papers when Brian gets here and procede with trying again. We will see whaty happens but I kind of have a feeling that nothing is going to happen. Maybe that feeling is mostly frustration but I still have the feeling.
I don't really have time to blog at home so I guess here at work on a midnight shift is the best place to get this done.
See you next midnight shift!
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
working a midnight shift
Tonight I am working a midnight shift and I only have a few more to do before Brian comes home on leave. Only 24 more days until I get to see him for a whole 18 days!! I don't mind the day shifts and I really love the afternoon shifts but the dogs don't like me sleeping during the day and I was never a person to sleep during the day unless I was sick.
So Brian and I will not be together for christmas - I guess that is ok - I would rather someone who has kids be home for the holidays but I will still miss him. I miss him anyway no matter if it is a holiday or just a regular weekday.
Last week was my first week teaching my knitting group and we really had a good time I am looking forward to us getting together this week and am happy that they are flexible and are able to work around my work schedule.
Brian called today and I was so happy to hear from him. I find myself looking at the picture of him just to pretend he is at the house with me. It is very hard to be apart and I have been working my ass off doing stuff to the house just so being apart is easier. It is bad enough that he is gone for six months but the year and a half training before he left meant that by the time he comes home we will have been apart for more than I even want to think about.
Sometimes the only way I can handle this is to think about my Grandmother and her on the farm looking after it and two little girls with no drivers liscense and living 28miles from the city during WWII when my grandfather was overseas. At least I get phone calls and emails, she never would have even had a phone call, and I am sure that letters weren't to plentiful either. I don't think I could have handled being in that situation because this one is hard enough.
Brian very rarely sounds anything other than tired when he calls. Sometimes I can tell that he is frustrated but there is nothing I can do to help him and I wish I could. I never knew you could miss someone and love someone this much.
Anyway back to knitting - two of the girls have had experience knitting before and we are going to work on a scarf this week. The other girl has never knit before but has caught on very quick. Since our digital camera is broken I am going to go get another one so I can take pictures of what we are making so that anyone who reads this can see our progress and so that I can post some of the other things I have been working on.
So Brian and I will not be together for christmas - I guess that is ok - I would rather someone who has kids be home for the holidays but I will still miss him. I miss him anyway no matter if it is a holiday or just a regular weekday.
Last week was my first week teaching my knitting group and we really had a good time I am looking forward to us getting together this week and am happy that they are flexible and are able to work around my work schedule.
Brian called today and I was so happy to hear from him. I find myself looking at the picture of him just to pretend he is at the house with me. It is very hard to be apart and I have been working my ass off doing stuff to the house just so being apart is easier. It is bad enough that he is gone for six months but the year and a half training before he left meant that by the time he comes home we will have been apart for more than I even want to think about.
Sometimes the only way I can handle this is to think about my Grandmother and her on the farm looking after it and two little girls with no drivers liscense and living 28miles from the city during WWII when my grandfather was overseas. At least I get phone calls and emails, she never would have even had a phone call, and I am sure that letters weren't to plentiful either. I don't think I could have handled being in that situation because this one is hard enough.
Brian very rarely sounds anything other than tired when he calls. Sometimes I can tell that he is frustrated but there is nothing I can do to help him and I wish I could. I never knew you could miss someone and love someone this much.
Anyway back to knitting - two of the girls have had experience knitting before and we are going to work on a scarf this week. The other girl has never knit before but has caught on very quick. Since our digital camera is broken I am going to go get another one so I can take pictures of what we are making so that anyone who reads this can see our progress and so that I can post some of the other things I have been working on.
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